why do I feel so empty
I’m crying for some stability
you destroy my many securities
I breaking down someone pray for me
He loves like no other not an ordinary love.
Restole my joy restole my courage lord I need your love
I found a new love; I found new, found a new love
I finally found it in God

Okay so I’m kinda checking in. For those of you who do or don’t know, I was planning to audition for America’s Next Top Model. However, I decided most recently not to. I realized that being a model is not part of my plan. I decided not to waste time on something I truly did not want. What do I want: be faithful to God and myself, finish school, and do work for the kingdom and my communities… So tonight I have written the vision and it is plain (Hab 2:2). I will no longer allow you or me to stand in my way. Lets go… So what I will be doing? Well I am always getting my Esther on so I will continue to do so. I will be spending 30days with Jesus. And as my progression goes… Follow me… I can’t wait for the new ups and downs that will come… I am being broken…

Today during his message my Pastor said “Why are you half commited? Because you aren’t completly sure of who God is.” And that made so much sense. But I know who God is so I should not walk a half commited life. And I won’t any longer. I have already jumped my most difficult hurdle, so now I push. My pastor talked about how Jesus curse the tree for not producing any fruit. Jesus cursed the tree for pretending it was something when it wasn’t. (Matthew 21:18-19). The bible says in Matthew 7:15-19

15 “Beware of false prophets, who come to you in sheep’s clothing, but inwardly they are ravenous wolves. 16You will know them by their fruits. Do men gather grapes from thornbushes or figs from thistles? 17 Even so, every good tree bears good fruit, but a bad tree bears bad fruit. 18 A good tree cannot bear bad fruit, nor can a bad tree bear good fruit. 19 Every tree that does not bear good fruit is cut down and thrown into the fire. 20 Therefore by their fruits you will know them.

And knowing what I known and have known I can no longer be unfaithful. I am truly focused man.

So now I absorbing Tye Tribbett’s No Other Choice with soon to be IN THE NAVY  blues.