So you may or, most likely, may not have noticed it’s been sometime since my last posting. And honestly I have been busy-ish but I have also been lazy-ish… Well more lazy than ish when it comes to this. But I have made a safe return. With the thoughts that have brought me here today.

So yea this is a part 3. Same purpose. Same theme. Same goal. 

Months ago I was searching for what would ultimately make me happy. And now months later I am not too much closer than I was back then. I know a little bit more than I did, as it pertains to life. Things are different. But I still do not know what will make me happy or what I am supposed to be doing with my life.

I have however started putting some of my plans into action. That, I do have to say, feels really good. From time to time, I see a guy that I was in training with at my job and he always mentions where I said I wanted to be years ago. It goes as follows, ” Oh you’re still here. I remember when you said you were going to be gone in a year. How long has it been now?” And when I run into him I get annoyed that he brings it up EVERY time I see him. But the bible says in Ecclesiastes 3:1:

 To everything there is a season,
A time for every purpose under heaven:

What does that mean? I am exactly where I am supposed to be. And that feels good.

I wanted to write this blog a few days ago when a friend of my got really good news. When I met her years ago I told her (Shanette) that she reminded me of another friend of mine (Shaie). Why? Because these women are two the most focused women I know. When they put their minds to something they do it. And neither of them having a perfect life but whatever life throws their way they continue to be goal minded. It is a pleasure to see. And both of them have personalities do not disappoint. So as I move forward with this journey that I am on, I take the wisdom and knowledge from those around me. I thank God for the ability to be close enough to see your greatness.

So Congratulations to Shanette on the new journey that you are embarking on.  I’m going to come down to Atlanta to visit. And shout to Shaie for being the person you have always been. Love you both!

Refreshingly taking in Hillsong’s Lead Me to the Cross and Fred Hammond’s Awesome God while in the fog.

So today I had a conversation with one of my out-of-state best friends. We were talking about what I consider typical things that young women of our age talk about. The Future. I was telling her that I plan to move across the country within the next few months and the other life changes to come. While discussing that. I was telling her that I am unsure what I really want to go to school for. Lately I have been recreationally in school. What does that mean? I have taken classes but without any real goal. I started with one but now I am just not so sure.

As I was telling her about my lack of direction she asked me a question, “Do you remember how I figured [it] out?” I respond, “No I don’t remember.” She tells me, ” if you didn’t have to worry about money…..what would you [do] for free?”  The funny thing was my sister and I were talking about that very thing the day before. I jokingly told both my sister and my friend “i would be kim kardashian… u kno without the sextape and whore tendencies.”

But at that moment the light bulb just went off… I need to figure out what I would do for free that would make me happy. Make me feel like I was doing something with my life. Make me feel good after putting in a long days work. I then told my friend ” i guess i need to just sit down and write things down, pray … see what i come up with”

The bible says in Jeremiah 29:11 :

For I know the plans that I have for you’ says the Lord. ‘Plans to prosper you not to harm you. Plans to give hope and a future.

I need to find not only my plans for me but God’s plans for me. So I have committed to finding what is going to be for me. Its crazy, she’s not the first person to ever say this but today was the day I was really ready to hear it. So this is another journey to add to the forward movement of my life.

So shout out to Shaie Michele for being on time.

Enthusiastically taking in Our God by Chris Tomlin while wearing High Maintenance.

Firstly, I would like to thank you for following me here to my joint blogging home. Secondly, I would like to restate that I don’t really know what is urging me to write about this topic but here I am. Thirdly, I am not scouting out a husband. I am not running towards the isle. This is just what is in my heart right now. So the other day I was thinking about all of the qualities that I want in my future husband and I came across a myspace blog posting of my bestie where she bares her 62-point minimum requirement. I elected a different approach at the same. I decided to create a list of promises that I could make to the man I would one day call my husband. I figure this was the best way to approach my list, by committing to promises that I can live up to and in turn expect of him as well. I want my husband to know that he can commit to these promises and have a list of his own.

So I find myself dreaming of the man that I will one day call my husband. I think about how our children will love us. And how our hard days will end with his head in my lap while I’m slowly rubbing his head. I think about how our children ask how we met and we look at each other knowing that God couldn’t have orchestrated our meeting better if he had tried. Going to sleep every night thinking about how I was blessed with the best man alive. And even when the bad days comes know that there isn’t anything that we can not face together with God.

Truthfully, I never saw myself as a “dater”. I always knew that by design I would be the settled type. At times this has been a downfall. I did think that I saw my husband in him. I came to realization that I didn’t so I couldn’t live that life any longer. I know when God shows me to my husband, he will be able to make more commitments to me that I could think of and I to him. So I’m not going to say that I am ready. I have so much growing to do in so many different ways, but I know that I can’t wait until God sees fit to add to my life in that way. I don’t plan to rush the process nor explore it on my own. I will wait patiently wait.

Thank you once again for reading my mind tonight. Here’s something that I found and instantly fell in love with Floetry Fantasize. Comments can be posted on both the facebook note or the myspace blog.

I’m soulfully drinking in Destiny’s Child’s Cater to you and Chrisette Michele’s Golden with Lovely Lavendar  with Shocking Pink dots.